Epiphany Resolutions...

Those rare moments when the wind blows through our hair and we breath deeply and the sun and the rich green of the springtime hills all roll together--that is a taste of epiphany. We see--if even for a moment--something more than the sum of what we are looking at--we see what we were looking for. I had one of these moments today as I was walking back over the top of a hill towards my car. I saw what I was looking for--U2 song be damned--but I did. I have been striving to juggle too many jobs with too many commitments for too long so that I could have a better life. But I realized today I have a great life--one of the best lives in the world--and the only person that wasn't seeing it was me. I had listened to the Whispering Fear too long and had started to believe him. And I couldn't even see it. It took a moment of Holy Epiphany--that which was hidden, now revealed--to break me out of the cycle. But Epiphany or not--action is required on my part. Just like the Wise Men, who the liturgical church calender celebrates at Epiphany--much was required before their hopes and dreams were realized. Although their gifts show understanding and wisdom of just who this Little One would be--it wasn't until they reached the end of their great journey that we credit them with seeing that which was hidden. And so, although God is the one doing the disclosing--it must always be me doing the seeking. Seeking with open eyes and heart (and schedule) so that when the moment comes--my own seeking blinds not the gift from my eyes. Tomorrow morning, or tonight I will commandeer my schedule lest it commandeer my life. Adieu!